The Sickness... and it begins

Yep I am definitely feeling more and more pregnant everyday. The day before yesterday I felt the pangs of nauseousness.. it got worse yesterday. We decided to go to Pat and Oscars to eat and midway through the meal I got an overwhelming sense of the need to throw up. My heart raced and I got scared but it slowly dissipated. We went home soon after (Poor Mia didn't get to run around at the duck pond). Today its still here. I wake up in the middle of the night or a nap feeling really sick. So far nothing as bad as Mia's pregnancy yet... but am I getting close to it?! ACK!

Ouch!

Well for the past couple of days my hopes have been going up. Yesterday, along with being extremely tired and my boobs increasingly hurting, I felt sick. Not sick sick to the degree of laying down and not moving, but I did feel the tinge of nauseousness. I would eat then a few mins later feel sick and bleh.

Today I am even more tired and after sleeping for about 7hrs I still fell asleep while watching TV with Mia in the morning. After I woke up I was still tried and contemplated going down for a nap myself once she was down. My boobs hurt even more!!! When I stretched earlier I felt a stabby pain on my left side in my uterus. Is something happening? Is the egg implanting now? Wow I really can be pregnant!

I am excited. I can't wait to test but I know I have to wait. Oh and another thing.. I have to PEE all the time!!! and it isn't even very much.

I have a feeling I am pregnant!! YAY!

Doubts......

I was really excited at first. I really thought maybe, just maaaaaybe I really was pregnant. This was while we were still in Vegas. I was having some strong pressure in my uterus along with massive gas and a stabby pain. My boobs were hurting and I felt dizzy. I was relishing in the new feelings and excitement of "What if?" "I probably am!"

I was so excited that I was already asking myself if I should tell my Dad early while he is still visiting here at the house. Adrian told me not to and to wait till the test confirmation in a couple of weeks. Well the symptoms followed me and remained the same the past couple of days.

Adrian and I cleared out our garage and I kept feeling stabby pains in my uterus if I did to much. When I laughed really hard with my Dad the pressure was very noticeable and painful. I defiantly felt pregnant. It reminded me alot of Angel's pregnancy. I went to bed feeling content.

However the ONLY thing that has had me going... "oh no!" is my temp. It refused to spike. I know for a fact that after ovulation it spikes and it was still hovering in the 97.30s even if I was up and about. This concerned me so much. My ovulation test was positive on the 24th and 25th and it was negative on the 27th. Is my thermometer off?

I took my temp about an hour ago after giving Mia a bath and for the first time it was 97.50s!!!!! Did I just now spike? Did I ovulate yesterday? am I having a girl now because I was to much of a eager beaver and did the baby dance prematurely? Am I even pregnant at all?!?!?!?!?!?! Today was the first day the pressure is minimal and I don't feel that stabby pain anymore. I am depressed. Could I be wrong? am I not even pregnant?!!? Are these just ovulation signs I am feeling? I am so sad... I am seriously beginning to feel like I was wrong and I am not pregnant. If that is the case I will seriously be crushed!!! I really wanted that Vegas baby! Everything was so perfect there and they would have such a cute little romantic conception story just like Mia (my honeymoon Maui baby). Sigh.... I guess now its just a waiting game. My hopes have been crushed so I am going to take one day at a time.

I guess I jumped the gun a bit... I guess I wanted that Vegas baby to bad. I blew it....

The time has come!

Well we did it!!! We took "the big gamble in Las Vegas". We are currently in Las Vegas celebrating our 2 year wedding anniversary (alittle late since its Jan! haha). I had a feeling I would ovulate while here and sure enough I did!!!!

Once we hit the border I got the CM sign!! Then once we got to our room, which by the way is a Grand Suite at Mandalay Bay, I took a ovulation test and it was POSITIVE!!! Two of them were! So I waited 12 hours later (which your supposed to, to increase the boy chance) before doing the "baby dance" haha

So we are in the running! I am so excited... I hope it worked!! The only thing is my temp never truly spiked its been all over the place. I hope we get our boy but I will be happy with either as long as they are happy and healthy!!!

EEEEEK! I might be PREGNANT!!!!!

Getting closer!

With my ovulation day coming nearer and nearer I am getting more and more excited and impatient!!! I want to be pregnant NOW! I know I will be eating those words soon enough when I am sick as a dog, able to smell every single molecule of mater but I don't care! I am excited I can't wait, yes I am still nervous but my excitement overwhelms all of that.

Will I be able to go through with it once those two pink lines on my ovulation kit show up? I dunno.. I feel like I will but I have a hard time with starting a big commitment like this. I am a bit nervous but I know I will do good.

Wow only a few more days now!!!!! EEEEEP!

Here we go...

Well it started. Today was the first day I took my ovulation test. I know I am far from ovulating (well not really... actually about a week from ovulation) but it was a big step for me. I always told myself I would start taking the OV test on the 18th and here we are. Time is really flying by and we are getting closer and closer to the big day! I am nervous and with every day getting closer I am getting more and more excited and nervous.

I am still taking my temp every morning which is a HUGE hassle. I can't wait until I can finally stop doing that. Its really a pain to take it twice, once when I wake up and once before I get up. Sometimes I find myself falling asleep with the darn thing in my mouth, only to be woken up by its beeps. Sigh.. all the things I am doing to ensure I know exactly when I can have a baby. When was making a baby so much work?!

I kind of wish I could just let things happen if and when it happens but due to my age, Mia's age and timing I just can't rely on that. Though it is more fun to be spontaneous and its exciting I am done with doing it that way. I did it with Mia and Angel so this time its more planned out.

To be honest its only because I am DYING for that boy! I want a son so bad! I need my boy and this is the only way to heighten my chances on my end. Luckily Adrian is a good sport and going along with my madness. I just hope all my efforts are not in vain and all of this that I am doing doesn't effect the outcome at all.. that would be a total shame.

Well I just felt I should write something about my big step day. Only a few more days till the baby dance! EEEK!

Taking baby steps

Since we finally agreed this is the month we are going to try to have a baby, I have been so excited. All my talks are about the new baby and my upcoming pregnancy. I want to brag to the world and to everyone because I am so sure I will get pregnant fast but I can't. I don't want anything to go wrong this time around and I don't want to jinx anything.

I have been keeping track of my temp everyday to figure out when exactly I ovulate, to help things along. I bought a TWO ovulation kits to also help.

Why so eager to find out my ovulation date? Why not have "fun" and whatever happens happen? Well for one we did that already.. TWICE.. once with Mia and once with Angel. This time I want to plan alittle better. The main reason though is I WANT MY BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want a son so bad!!!! I have always wanted a little boy my whole life. Don't get me wrong I love having a daughter and Mia is the best, and any future daughters will be just as welcomed and great.. however... I WANT A BOY!!!!

I am trying everything in my power to increase the chances of having a boy and I am feeling pretty confident. I am going into this thing with a boy on my mind and in my heart so hopefully it will work out that way. If we get a girl again I will still be happy, however, I am rooting for a boy. I want to talk to other people about this and how excited I am and what I have been doing to prepare for a boy.. but again I don't want to jinx it. I feel its like a birthday wish, if I talk about it .. it won't happen. I can talk to Adrian about it because he is involved and Mia because she doesn't understand but thats it. Its driving me nuts!! I am not good at holding in secrets, but this one I must. After I get pregnant its out of my hands, whatever happens happens but until then its hush hush. Especially my efforts in trying for that boy.

Why do I want a boy so bad. OMG so many reasons, where to even start? Well I always wanted a boy so I could see my husband in him... but now that Mia looks identical to Adrian that isn't such a big reason anymore. I want a boy so he could love me and become a "Mama's Boy" haha I want to be the first in the family to bring in the Grandson on both sides. I want to be the first to bring in the nephew on both sides. I just want a son. I need my boy, I deserve my boy we deserve our boy. I hope for a boy!!!! Dear God if you are reading this please bless us with our healthy little boy!!!